Self-Diagnosis

For 10 months now, I've been an almost-daily blogger. I've had inspirations of things to write about and ideas of how to write them.

A few weeks ago, my ideas ran out, my inspirations were gone, and I've been experiencing a bit of writer's block. And it wasn't until today, when I was pondering it all, that I realized why.

Last night I was watching "Will and Grace" (love that show, btw). The character Jack had just been dumped. He was so depressed that he started writing a novel as a way to release to his pain. After a little while, he was involved in a relationship again. He was happy, so he quit writing because he no longer had the ability to write because he wasn't feeling down. When I was searching my mind today for reasons why the change in my blogging had occurred, I thought of last night's show.

Ever since I first started this blog, I've been writing posts that focus on the positive aspects of my life to keep my negative inner self at bay. And it's been more than therapeutic for me. But for the past 2 months, I've been happy. Really, really happy. Something a bit traumatic happened to me at the end of January, and I had to dig deep within myself for any source of strength. It was an emotionally hard time for me, and I turned to my friends for help. I found the courage and the ability to heal my wounded heart from the pain of that incident. And then my heart healed from past hurts. And then my heart opened up to allow love into my life again. And then my heart felt pure happiness and joy. And I've been happy ever since. I've still had hard days, and have been momentarily upset, but I've easily gotten over it to feel that joy again. It's been wonderful. I have really loved and treasured the relationships I have with my husband, my children, my family, and my friends. I can't remember the last time I felt this good! I love this feeling! But, due to my happiness, my blogging has been affected. I currently don't have the need to emotionally write. For weeks now, I've been writing in a documentary-style to record the happenings of my family. But at the moment, I'm caught up-to-date with my photos (GASP! That's NEVER happened in all my blogging days!), and I have no inspirations or ideas of things to write about. I just don't feel the deep connection to my writing that I used to!

And now that I've pondered the situation, analyzed myself, and given a self-diagnosis, I'm pretty content with the reasons for my non-inspirational blogging! I'll gladly accept the diagnosis of "happiness" as the source of my lack of inspiration any day!!!