Monday, March 29, 2010
A few weeks ago, my ideas ran out, my inspirations were gone, and I've been experiencing a bit of writer's block. And it wasn't until today, when I was pondering it all, that I realized why.
Last night I was watching "Will and Grace" (love that show, btw). The character Jack had just been dumped. He was so depressed that he started writing a novel as a way to release to his pain. After a little while, he was involved in a relationship again. He was happy, so he quit writing because he no longer had the ability to write because he wasn't feeling down. When I was searching my mind today for reasons why the change in my blogging had occurred, I thought of last night's show.
Ever since I first started this blog, I've been writing posts that focus on the positive aspects of my life to keep my negative inner self at bay. And it's been more than therapeutic for me. But for the past 2 months, I've been happy. Really, really happy. Something a bit traumatic happened to me at the end of January, and I had to dig deep within myself for any source of strength. It was an emotionally hard time for me, and I turned to my friends for help. I found the courage and the ability to heal my wounded heart from the pain of that incident. And then my heart healed from past hurts. And then my heart opened up to allow love into my life again. And then my heart felt pure happiness and joy. And I've been happy ever since. I've still had hard days, and have been momentarily upset, but I've easily gotten over it to feel that joy again. It's been wonderful. I have really loved and treasured the relationships I have with my husband, my children, my family, and my friends. I can't remember the last time I felt this good! I love this feeling! But, due to my happiness, my blogging has been affected. I currently don't have the need to emotionally write. For weeks now, I've been writing in a documentary-style to record the happenings of my family. But at the moment, I'm caught up-to-date with my photos (GASP! That's NEVER happened in all my blogging days!), and I have no inspirations or ideas of things to write about. I just don't feel the deep connection to my writing that I used to!
And now that I've pondered the situation, analyzed myself, and given a self-diagnosis, I'm pretty content with the reasons for my non-inspirational blogging! I'll gladly accept the diagnosis of "happiness" as the source of my lack of inspiration any day!!!
Friday, March 26, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
This year Ammon got 2nd place in the school with 243. The first place winner was Melissa (far right in the photo). She beat him in the class contest in Kindergarten, but every year since, Ammon has been one of the top winners in the entire school. Melissa was determined to beat Ammon this year, and she did for the first time since Kindergarten! This is Ammon's last year at the elementary school, because next year he will be attending the Middle School. So now the twins can start trying to earn the coveted title as winner of the Box Tops competition!!!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Then Kanyon began crawling on all fours like a kitty.
Then he started eating cat food.
And he liked it.
Pretty soon, he was meowing, crawling around, and eating cat food simultaneously.Now we're just waiting for his whiskers and tail to grow to make the transformation complete!!!
Saturday, March 20, 2010
The kindergarten celebrated by:
Wearing Pajamas to School
Reading his book "I am not going to get up today" as a class
Wearing their own hand-made "cat-in-the-hat" hats
Drawing pictures from their favorite Dr. Seuss book
Happy Birthday Dr. Seuss!!! We love reading your books!
Friday, March 19, 2010
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
1. of the highest quality, excellence, or standing.
2. most advantageous, suitable, or desirable.
definition of FRIEND:
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance; support.
I've had many "Best Friends" throughout my lifetime.
In the early years of my youth, my family moved around a lot due to my father's military job and the several universities he attended to earn his teaching degree. During those years, I had one 'Best Friend' a year, and each year it was a different person. When our family finally settled in Tremonton, I was in the 4th grade. Instead of moving and having to find a 'new' best friend, our family stayed, so I was forced to learn how to keep the friends I'd made, because we were no longer moving away from them. That was when I really started learning about what true "best friends" were, because after being friends with someone for longer than a year, you begin discovering personality flaws, you begin having disagreements, you begin to uncover the true being and nature of the person--and best friends love another, not for who they are, but in spite of who they are! It isn't until you've seen another's faults and you still love them and support them and remain friends, then the term "best friends" takes on its true value, with deeper feelings and greater understanding.
Since becoming an adult, I've had several 'best friends'. Each one still usually lasts only a year or two, just like in my early youth, mostly due to reasons of moving (either I move away, or my friend does). True best friends remain my friends for life, but the time spent with them becomes much less frequent because of the distance and contact with them unfortunately turns into the once a year meeting (if that). These best-friends-turned-distant-friends are dear to my heart, and always will be: Cindy Taylor, Becky Durrant, Kayleen Ball, Marie Hansen, Emily Higbee, Candise Gilbert, Amy Baldwin, Celyn Ganske. I think about them and reflect on memories I have with them and I miss them.
I'm a person who thrives on having many acquaintances, but I need one close, good, true 'best' friend. I am so lucky to have more than just that one right now. There are five local people who I feel I can call my 'best' friend for many different reasons. I have five friends who I can turn to, who I love and who care about me, who are important to me and will be for my lifetime:
JoshJosh is my BFF--best friend forever and ever. We were friends long before we were married. I don't keep any aspect of my life from him. He knows me better than anyone, and we're still together--which says a lot! I love him for listening to me, for being reliable, for taking care of me and our family, for being my rock. He's definitely the better half of our relationship because he's the solid one, the stable one, the strong one. He's got a rebellious streak that keeps him mysterious and interesting! He's quiet and reserved which balances out with my talkativeness and outgoing personality! I love being alone with him and spending time together with him and keeping our relationship alive!
I feel blessed to have each of these five people's presence in my life. My relationships with each of these individuals have connections that run deep to the core of my very being. These 'best' friendships make my heart happy, my soul content, and my life complete!
Saturday, March 13, 2010
[But even if he had none, I'd love him just the same!]
Thursday, March 11, 2010
So in 2008, after 10 years of marriage, we finally took a long-overdue honeymoon and went on a 10-day trip to England. We visited places all over England and it was absolutely wonderful! We spent time in the large cities of London and Manchester and Leeds, but the area we enjoyed the most was the northern end of the country, with all the countrysides and rolling hills and farms and rock walls and old towns.
Near the end of the trip, we spent one night and part of a day in Scotland. We stayed at a lovely bed & breakfast in Dumfries, on the southwest end of the country near the border. We visited a 100-year-old golf course and toured the gorgeous and historic Caerlaverock Castle. We enjoyed every single minute of being in Scotland. The time spent there was at the top of our favorite moments from the trip.
We both loved being in Scotland so much, that if we ever had the opportunity, we both swear we would move there! Josh and I both vowed that on our next European trip, we would spend more time in Scotland and visit Ireland as well.
The 2nd official item on my bucket list: Take a vacation across Scotland and Ireland with Josh!
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Deja vu is the sensation of experiencing a new situation but thinking and feeling that it has occurred before.
I've experienced this phenomenon since I was a young teenager.
In the past week, I've had it three times, which is a bit much. Much more than normal.
It's never in a larger-than-life situation; it usually happens during a mundane task.
Like last Sunday, Kanyon was bouncing on my lap at church as the congregation was singing a certain song and somebody leaned over and said a certain phrase to me. I knew in that moment I'd lived it before.
It's rather a strange sensation.
Do any of you have it as often as I do?
I've heard it said that experiencing deja vu means that you're living your life on track, that you've viewed your life before, and when you experience it, you're doing what you should be doing in this life.
Do you think that's true?
Is that even possible?
I'm never for certain if my deja vu is something I've experienced previously in a night-time dream, because my dreams are so vivid, or if it really is something that I remember from the pre-mortal life.
What do YOU think?
Friday, March 5, 2010
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Special Thanks to Grandma P. for making the fun train cake, to Grandma T. for the cute train set, to Mick & Jen for the little tractors, and to everyone who remembered him on his special day! At age 3, Kanyon's favorites are:
TOYS--trains, cars, trucks, tractors, books, lego blocks, balls
ACTIVITIES--exploring outdoors, playing in the dirt pile, jumping in puddles, "helping" grandpa on the ranch, playing golf at dad's work, playing "Putt-Putt" computer games, bossing his brothers
TV SHOWS--Diego, Dora, Max & Ruby, Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, Thomas the Train
MOVIES--Cars, Polar Express
FOOD--cheese, hamburger, hot dogs, ketchup, pudding, ice cream
IMPERSONATIONS--growling like a bear, mewing like a cat, yipping like a puppy